As I mentioned yesterday, I've joined a forum with other Lap Banders and many of them speak of their Optifast journey. I'm yet to find one that didn't resort to normal food in their first week. If it was a main meal or some take away or they pigged out on something because they were so hungry they just couldn't handle it any more, I've experienced all of those sensations yet I've managed to conquer every one. It's been SOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard at times but, I've found something to focus on and something to keep me motivated and strong through each moment of weakness. I still can't believe it's a week. 1 down. 7 to go.
I wanted to go for a walk today but, it was raining. Nothing stops me lately - I did go for a walk but not at the local oval...
I took myself to Watergardens and went shopping :) I rewarded myself with some new clothes for my good behaviour for this week and spent a little too much money (I should have remembered the old age rule of never shopping when you're hungry as with me that applies for anything, not just food!). I walked SO much and SO fast! I also parked as far as away as I could from the shops that I needed to go to. I actually worked up a sweat and managed to get puffed! I consider that as my half an hour walk :)
As this photo was being taken, a couple walked past me (mid twenties?) and the guy said to his partner "look at that fat chick" she turned around to look. I said to her "yes, I am fat! Have you not seen a fat chick before?". Lachlan (my 11 year old who was taking the photo and also heard the man comment along with my response) is used to this although he shouldn't be. I don't understand what the attraction is. Sure, I'm big but I'm not the biggest person in the world and even if I was, it gives no right for people to point me out like I am some kind of attraction at the Zoo.
After Lachie had finished taking the photo, I took the opportunity to apologise to him for the fact that he has had to live with this his whole life. He said that it was okay. He said that they don't know that I am a nice person and they are the people who are missing out. I am happy that I have taught him well but, it shouldn't be like that.
When I was going through the photos that he took before posting this up, there was a really bad one (I wasn't ready!) but, I think it's important that I post it as well because it's a close up of my face and as I have only just started having photos taken, I am not really happy with how I look but these are photos that I will cherish as the weeks, months and years go on.