Wednesday, May 4, 2011

'Big - extreme makeover' - it gets my thumbs up :)

I normally don’t blog this late at night but I wanted to write this whilst it was all fresh in my mind.

I pushed myself to go to the gym tonight. I walked for 30 minutes and rode for 15 minutes.

During my bike ride, I watched the premier of Channel 9’s new show ‘Big – extreme makeover’.

Within the first 5 minutes, I had cried twice. I cried when Mick couldn’t get into the shower, I cried when he had to sit on a funny angle to put his socks on.

Later on, I cried when he was weighed. I cried when he lost a lot of weight after 4 weeks of really hard work and I cried when he put a lot of it back on. I was an emotional wreck.

I was so inspired by the show. I saw a lot of myself in it. At first, when the preview started, there is a girl named Bonnie (who they briefly introduced) and she was wearing a bra and undies. I cringed a bit because that’s kind of what I look like naked and it worried me that the people who were at the gym would then know that and I felt a bit yuck.

I think back to 8 months ago when I weighed 243 kilograms and I am happy that I am watching this show now rather than when I was that weight and didn’t know it. I am happy I was at the gym rather than sitting here on the couch eating pizza which I’d often order at 10.30pm at night (prior to August, anyway). I am happy that I am doing something about my weight and that I own the problem. I am relieved that I am in such a positive frame of mind and am doing so well in my journey and my commitment to ME.

I just hope I am not in tears every time it’s on. It’s so confronting. But in a good way.  It also makes me happy that I can't eat half of the food that he was able to.  And I am pleased that I have never had Yum Cha!  I have heard I am missing out!  I guess I'll never know!

I recommended it to anyone who wants to feel inspired by someone else’s journey.  It was fantastic.


  1. I agree. It was a good show. No competition factor, no eliminations, just doing it for no other reasons except u do it or your pretty much a dead man! Will def tune in next week.

    Keep up the good work

  2. I've taped it and going to watch it this morning.. I knew it would be confrontational and I am now ready to watch..

    I understand where you're coming from Stephanie.. I was 233.2 kg and seeing anyone near that brings me to tears..

    I'll let you know what I think after I watch...

  3. I didn't realise you were that weight. Thank you for sharing that xo

    I thunk shows like that are the ones that are going to be more realistic and something that we can relate to. It's hard to find someone bigger than us go through the whole process.

    I hope you enjoy it :) remember to have the box of tissues handy!