Today I have had a shake and that was for lunch. I have been drinking heaps of water as well. I did try having a glass of sugar free cordial but it made me cough because it tickled my throat. I did have a Corona with a slice of lemon though :) I guess that makes up for the shake that I missed this morning nutrition wise ;)
One of my friends Emailed me today and spoke about her pain/pleasure experience with the gym. I miss it so much. With Brad being in Hospital and now this bloody chest and ear thing, it hasn't helped matters much but, I'm getting better and things can start returning back to normal soon :)
I'm currently having an Optifast Chocolate Moose. I've put it into a Cocktail glass so that it looks a bit more tempting than what it is. The first 2 spoons of the moose were revolting but I'm now into it a bit more and they're not so bad.
I'm looking forward to this weekend. I'm going to take some photos - I don't have enough. I have been a lot less camera shy knowing that I'm losing weight but it would be good to have more shots.
I am also going to do some more reading this weekend. I'll bring a book with me on the train tomorrow. I was reading heaps at the beginning. I need to realise that it is now the beginning again! Although we're up to day 60 of this whole 'thing', I really should reset the clock and start at day 1!
It feels good to be blogging again. I forgot how much it keeps me on track.
It is great to hear how many of my friends are still doing their thing :) I know some people who don't know me personally or on Facebook got a bit worried when I left for those few weeks as it was as if I'd disappeared off the face of the earth! I'm so proud of people who just kept up with what they were doing. There's some amazing stories to be told.
I'm off to bed - need some rest before tomorrow. I need to go in although I don't feel like I can (or should). Bloody cough!
Happy Friday everyone xoxo
P.S - I've lost 3.4kg so far this week :)
41 days to go! :)
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Day 59 - how did I get through today?
Short blog - I am SO tired!
I went to work today and I'm not sure how I made it through! I felt awful and still do.
I was coughing so much. Rather than putting one of my Clients on hold, I just moved the head set mic away from my mouth (after I'd explained what I was doing) and she was great - she understood that it just wouldn't stop!
I work in a call centre environment (although it's not really that) and I have a phone shift on most days - sometimes I'm on the phones for 4 and a half hours! I got taken off my shift due to my coughing which was a relief :) anyone at my work would have to agree that not having to be on a phone shift is lovely no matter what the reason :)
I had 1 shake this morning - that was for breakfast. I didn't have lunch - I just had lots of water (mainly soda). I had lots of sugar free lollies to try and stop my coughing. I didn't have anything for dinner either. Just feeling really yuck :(
42 days to go :)
I went to work today and I'm not sure how I made it through! I felt awful and still do.
I was coughing so much. Rather than putting one of my Clients on hold, I just moved the head set mic away from my mouth (after I'd explained what I was doing) and she was great - she understood that it just wouldn't stop!
I work in a call centre environment (although it's not really that) and I have a phone shift on most days - sometimes I'm on the phones for 4 and a half hours! I got taken off my shift due to my coughing which was a relief :) anyone at my work would have to agree that not having to be on a phone shift is lovely no matter what the reason :)
I had 1 shake this morning - that was for breakfast. I didn't have lunch - I just had lots of water (mainly soda). I had lots of sugar free lollies to try and stop my coughing. I didn't have anything for dinner either. Just feeling really yuck :(
42 days to go :)
Day 58 - new surgery date
Uurrgghh, I feel so blah.
I HATE coughing the amount that I do. I just got back from the Doctors and I have a chest and an ear infection. He's put me on some antibiotics and I need to use Ventolin when I get wheezy which is more often than I'd like.
I stuck to my Optifasts today and I am pleased. I bought a pack of the berry crunch bars and they were so nice. I'll stick with them I think until my infection has gone. I am finding it's best to drink water rather than anything at the moment.
I didn't have anything to eat for dinner. I had 1 chocolate Optifast this morning and the 1 berry crunch bar this afternoon. I wasn't hungry at dinner time so I'm going to bed in a minute - if I am going to make it to work tomorrow, I have to have an early one tonight!
I'm already looking forward to weigh day. It's going to be a good one this week :)
New surgery date is the 17th of November. THE OFFICIAL COUNTDOWN IS NOW ON.
I HATE coughing the amount that I do. I just got back from the Doctors and I have a chest and an ear infection. He's put me on some antibiotics and I need to use Ventolin when I get wheezy which is more often than I'd like.
I stuck to my Optifasts today and I am pleased. I bought a pack of the berry crunch bars and they were so nice. I'll stick with them I think until my infection has gone. I am finding it's best to drink water rather than anything at the moment.
I didn't have anything to eat for dinner. I had 1 chocolate Optifast this morning and the 1 berry crunch bar this afternoon. I wasn't hungry at dinner time so I'm going to bed in a minute - if I am going to make it to work tomorrow, I have to have an early one tonight!
I'm already looking forward to weigh day. It's going to be a good one this week :)
New surgery date is the 17th of November. THE OFFICIAL COUNTDOWN IS NOW ON.
Monday, October 4, 2010
WEEK 7 - day 57
I weighed myself for the first time in a while today. 215.5kg. I've put on 4.3kg in the few weeks of 'hell' as I refer to it as. It could have been worse but I'm happy that it wasn't.
I've still lost 7.5kg so, I need to look on the bright side.
I took the day off work today. I was up all night vomitting because I am coughing so hard. I have been using Ventolin over the past few days because I havern't been able to breathe. It's been awful. I am so achy from the amount that I've coughed. I did have a Doctors appointment at 3 this afternoon but I slept through it. I have rescheduled for 12.30pm tomorrow.
I also couldn't attend my CPAP fitting. With a tempreture of 39.4 (even after shower and Panadol), I'm not going anywhere other than streight to bed. I'll have to reschdule it.
Today I've done weill with my shakes. I had one when I got up for lunch (that was about 12.30). I went back to bed and I had a Strawberry one for dinner along with a nice salad. I have drunk heaps of diet cordials today as well as lots of diet Lemonade.
I think I've found my motivation again. I want this so bad and you don't get things that you want without first working hard for it.
I've still lost 7.5kg so, I need to look on the bright side.
I took the day off work today. I was up all night vomitting because I am coughing so hard. I have been using Ventolin over the past few days because I havern't been able to breathe. It's been awful. I am so achy from the amount that I've coughed. I did have a Doctors appointment at 3 this afternoon but I slept through it. I have rescheduled for 12.30pm tomorrow.
I also couldn't attend my CPAP fitting. With a tempreture of 39.4 (even after shower and Panadol), I'm not going anywhere other than streight to bed. I'll have to reschdule it.
Today I've done weill with my shakes. I had one when I got up for lunch (that was about 12.30). I went back to bed and I had a Strawberry one for dinner along with a nice salad. I have drunk heaps of diet cordials today as well as lots of diet Lemonade.
I think I've found my motivation again. I want this so bad and you don't get things that you want without first working hard for it.
Day 56 - 25 days to go :)
Only 25 days left! I can't believe how quick it's come up.
I am feeling quite nervous. It's almost like it's not going to happen as it's something that I've been waiting so long for. Postponing the date didn't help that at all so, it's been nearly 3 months of preparation. It's a bit frustrating!
Today we went to pick up Lachie from Mum and Dad's. It is an hour and a half drive so, it's quite a journey. The babies started to get frustrated half way there but, we managed to pull through until we got to Mum and Dad's.
Mum had mad some afternoon tea - gorgeous little Sandwiches (I could have devoured all of them), fairy bread and Lachie had made some cup cakes. I bought my Optislim Tomato Soup and tried to make it with no success. I can't mix it and it turns out gluggy and inedible. I had 3 little Sandwiches and took that as being my Tomato Soup. It filled me up. I didn't have any of the other things so I did well.
We were supposed to go to Judy's (my Mother in Law's) for tea but I'm still not well. I have such a bad cough and am wheezing constantly. My joints are aching because of how much coughing I've been doing. I have such a headache because of it as well. I just want to feel better! I'll make a Doctors appointment for tomorrow after work.
Next week is a new week - I'm looking forward to it. Another week, more challenges :)
I am feeling quite nervous. It's almost like it's not going to happen as it's something that I've been waiting so long for. Postponing the date didn't help that at all so, it's been nearly 3 months of preparation. It's a bit frustrating!
Today we went to pick up Lachie from Mum and Dad's. It is an hour and a half drive so, it's quite a journey. The babies started to get frustrated half way there but, we managed to pull through until we got to Mum and Dad's.
Mum had mad some afternoon tea - gorgeous little Sandwiches (I could have devoured all of them), fairy bread and Lachie had made some cup cakes. I bought my Optislim Tomato Soup and tried to make it with no success. I can't mix it and it turns out gluggy and inedible. I had 3 little Sandwiches and took that as being my Tomato Soup. It filled me up. I didn't have any of the other things so I did well.
We were supposed to go to Judy's (my Mother in Law's) for tea but I'm still not well. I have such a bad cough and am wheezing constantly. My joints are aching because of how much coughing I've been doing. I have such a headache because of it as well. I just want to feel better! I'll make a Doctors appointment for tomorrow after work.
Next week is a new week - I'm looking forward to it. Another week, more challenges :)
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Day 55 - not long to go
Things seem to be going along nicely... Brad's out of Hospital, the hot water service hasn't broken down yet, the dishwasher is still working, I have only lost the car keys once in the past week and despite the twins having slight ear infections, everyone seems to be in good health :)
There's only 26 days until my Surgery. I may have to change the date again as I need to be on the CPAP machine for at least 3 weeks prior and I don't think I can see Dr Goldin until the 14th of October. Putting Surgery off for another week for this reason doesn't worry me. I'd rather be as safe as I possibly can.
I'm still trying to find my drive. Trying to remember what it was that kept me going for the month that I was doing so well as I am stuffing up here at there - too much for my liking. It's not that I am being too hard on myself, it's the fact that I'm not doing whatI am supposed to be doing when it comes to my Optifast stage and I can't work out why.
I am going to speak to my Psychiatrist about it on Thursday to see what he says. I am sure that it's not just a 1 session issue but if I can try and get some understanding into what seems to be quite a complex issue, I'll be happy. There's a reason I am the way I am and I'd like to try and work out why.
Now that Brad is out of Hospital, I'll be able to start going back to the gym (something I really enjoy). I'll also have more time to do my blog (something that kept me on track) and time to read. And day light saving starts tomorrow - I intend on making the most of it and going for a walk with the Kids. I need to get them into a habit of being healthy. Lachie had to run my glasses to me when I was waiting for my train. He ran about 50 metres and was puffed! He hasn't been playing footy this year so that's one reason why he's not fit but I'd like to try and get all of the kids out walking and getting some fresh air. Maybe Brad might come with me also?
I hope everyone is having a good weekend. It was such beautiful Weather today. I spent the morning at the Market with Trish and Clint. I spent the rest of the day driving to and fro. I'm off to Mum's tomorrow to pick up Lachie and then I need to get the boys organised to start back at School on Monday. It's Lachie's last term as a Primary School Student. It's gone so fast. Feels like only yesterday I bought my tiny blond Man into Prep :) :(
There's only 26 days until my Surgery. I may have to change the date again as I need to be on the CPAP machine for at least 3 weeks prior and I don't think I can see Dr Goldin until the 14th of October. Putting Surgery off for another week for this reason doesn't worry me. I'd rather be as safe as I possibly can.
I'm still trying to find my drive. Trying to remember what it was that kept me going for the month that I was doing so well as I am stuffing up here at there - too much for my liking. It's not that I am being too hard on myself, it's the fact that I'm not doing whatI am supposed to be doing when it comes to my Optifast stage and I can't work out why.
I am going to speak to my Psychiatrist about it on Thursday to see what he says. I am sure that it's not just a 1 session issue but if I can try and get some understanding into what seems to be quite a complex issue, I'll be happy. There's a reason I am the way I am and I'd like to try and work out why.
Now that Brad is out of Hospital, I'll be able to start going back to the gym (something I really enjoy). I'll also have more time to do my blog (something that kept me on track) and time to read. And day light saving starts tomorrow - I intend on making the most of it and going for a walk with the Kids. I need to get them into a habit of being healthy. Lachie had to run my glasses to me when I was waiting for my train. He ran about 50 metres and was puffed! He hasn't been playing footy this year so that's one reason why he's not fit but I'd like to try and get all of the kids out walking and getting some fresh air. Maybe Brad might come with me also?
I hope everyone is having a good weekend. It was such beautiful Weather today. I spent the morning at the Market with Trish and Clint. I spent the rest of the day driving to and fro. I'm off to Mum's tomorrow to pick up Lachie and then I need to get the boys organised to start back at School on Monday. It's Lachie's last term as a Primary School Student. It's gone so fast. Feels like only yesterday I bought my tiny blond Man into Prep :) :(
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Day 31 - 45 - WARNING - long post!
It's been a while! Firstly, to everyone who has been messaging me and Emailing me to find out if I am still alive (and/or on track), I really appreciate your support and concern. I am still alive but, a lot has happened in the last few weeks. I'm not sure which chain mail I didn't pass on or what ladder I have walked under in the past month or so but life has been bloody hard lately and it seems that everything that can test me has been thrown at me. It's bizarre.
A week ago, Brad went into Hospital. He'll be there for another few weeks yet. A week prior to that, cracks started to show in what seemed to be my almost drama free life!
The following is a list of the things that have happened in the past 2 weeks (in no particular order). Shit happens but it has never happened to me in such huge quantities...
- Brad is in Hospital
- The hot water service broke (and is now fixed $1800 later...)
- The dishwasher broke down and needed replacing ($700 later...)
- The toilet became blocked (free - managed to unblock it without the need for a plumber)
- The babies keep turning the pilot light off on the hot water service so I end up with cold water rather than hot and then have to wait for it to heat up again
- Lachlan opened a tin of paint in the Laundry and it spilled all over the floor and is now on all of my work clothes and on parts of the carpet in the house
- My washing machine has stopped working properly and doesn't spin the clothes
- A child threatened Lachlan with a knife last week
- I am not sleeping at night and keep getting up and strange times
- I lost my car keys and needed to call a locksmith to replace my car key - more money I didn't need (or have) to be spending...
- Callum made corn flake and honey bread the other day and dropped the honey jar on the ground resulting in a sticky mess
- Charlotte dropped all the coffee on the ground also
- I have ran out of money because of everything that has needed replacing
- The floor boards near the shower have rotted and they are going to end up breaking if not replaced soon
- Kitty has a sore on his leg and needs to go to the vet
- Lachlan broke something whilst he was on an excursion and I need to pay for it
- I lost my train ticket today and had to buy a new one (small in the scheme of things but still annoying)
- I got my sleep study results and I have severe sleep apnoea
- I haven't been able to go to the gym for the past 2 weeks because if I'm not cleaning or cooking, I'm sleeping
- I've changed my surgery date from the 6th of October 2010 to the 28th of October 2010
I could go on and on could bring up more things that have happened but the list above is not only lengthy but it is so negative. I don't want to dwell on the negatives too much as it's all that seems to have been happening.
In some way, I wish I had continued to blog each day so that I had an account of what was going on so that in a few weeks or months time I can look back and say 'sure, that was hard but I got through' but, I didn't and in some way I am happy as although none of what has happened is related to my weight loss or my lap band journey, it has affected my mood therefore has affected my focus and my eating habits.
I haven't been behaving as well as I should have in the past few weeks when it comes to eating. I have had some take away (other than Subway). Hungry Jacks was one thing that I ate. It made me feel sick and I ended up vomiting. I won't do that again. I haven't been having my shakes although I have kept my fluid intake up which is good.
I really should have taken the time to study what was going on and keep myself focused but now that the worst part is over (I hope) I can now get back on track.
TOMORROW I START FROM SCRATCH AGAIN.
I have put on weight - I am not sure how much but I will weigh myself and I'll write it up but tomorrow, I start my Optifast shake diet again and I will follow it. I have 5 and a half weeks left to surgery so it's good that in some way I have been given a second chance on sticking to the program to make sure that my surgery goes as smoothly as possible. This is not something that I have been thinking about as this crud has been occurring.
It's really late so I'll revisit some of the things that I have written tomorrow like the sleep apnoea results (OMG - that was scary) and whatever else is included in my list of things that need further explanation.
Once again, thank you everyone for the messages that I have received over the past few weeks. I look forward to having my shakes tomorrow and have the feeling of control again. Well, control on what I put in my mouth anyway.
I'm off to bed xo
P.S - one fantastic thing happened last week - I not only met Shane Crawford but I got to bring him his lunch! I'll put pics up tomorrow :)
A week ago, Brad went into Hospital. He'll be there for another few weeks yet. A week prior to that, cracks started to show in what seemed to be my almost drama free life!
The following is a list of the things that have happened in the past 2 weeks (in no particular order). Shit happens but it has never happened to me in such huge quantities...
- Brad is in Hospital
- The hot water service broke (and is now fixed $1800 later...)
- The dishwasher broke down and needed replacing ($700 later...)
- The toilet became blocked (free - managed to unblock it without the need for a plumber)
- The babies keep turning the pilot light off on the hot water service so I end up with cold water rather than hot and then have to wait for it to heat up again
- Lachlan opened a tin of paint in the Laundry and it spilled all over the floor and is now on all of my work clothes and on parts of the carpet in the house
- My washing machine has stopped working properly and doesn't spin the clothes
- A child threatened Lachlan with a knife last week
- I am not sleeping at night and keep getting up and strange times
- I lost my car keys and needed to call a locksmith to replace my car key - more money I didn't need (or have) to be spending...
- Callum made corn flake and honey bread the other day and dropped the honey jar on the ground resulting in a sticky mess
- Charlotte dropped all the coffee on the ground also
- I have ran out of money because of everything that has needed replacing
- The floor boards near the shower have rotted and they are going to end up breaking if not replaced soon
- Kitty has a sore on his leg and needs to go to the vet
- Lachlan broke something whilst he was on an excursion and I need to pay for it
- I lost my train ticket today and had to buy a new one (small in the scheme of things but still annoying)
- I got my sleep study results and I have severe sleep apnoea
- I haven't been able to go to the gym for the past 2 weeks because if I'm not cleaning or cooking, I'm sleeping
- I've changed my surgery date from the 6th of October 2010 to the 28th of October 2010
I could go on and on could bring up more things that have happened but the list above is not only lengthy but it is so negative. I don't want to dwell on the negatives too much as it's all that seems to have been happening.
In some way, I wish I had continued to blog each day so that I had an account of what was going on so that in a few weeks or months time I can look back and say 'sure, that was hard but I got through' but, I didn't and in some way I am happy as although none of what has happened is related to my weight loss or my lap band journey, it has affected my mood therefore has affected my focus and my eating habits.
I haven't been behaving as well as I should have in the past few weeks when it comes to eating. I have had some take away (other than Subway). Hungry Jacks was one thing that I ate. It made me feel sick and I ended up vomiting. I won't do that again. I haven't been having my shakes although I have kept my fluid intake up which is good.
I really should have taken the time to study what was going on and keep myself focused but now that the worst part is over (I hope) I can now get back on track.
TOMORROW I START FROM SCRATCH AGAIN.
I have put on weight - I am not sure how much but I will weigh myself and I'll write it up but tomorrow, I start my Optifast shake diet again and I will follow it. I have 5 and a half weeks left to surgery so it's good that in some way I have been given a second chance on sticking to the program to make sure that my surgery goes as smoothly as possible. This is not something that I have been thinking about as this crud has been occurring.
It's really late so I'll revisit some of the things that I have written tomorrow like the sleep apnoea results (OMG - that was scary) and whatever else is included in my list of things that need further explanation.
Once again, thank you everyone for the messages that I have received over the past few weeks. I look forward to having my shakes tomorrow and have the feeling of control again. Well, control on what I put in my mouth anyway.
I'm off to bed xo
P.S - one fantastic thing happened last week - I not only met Shane Crawford but I got to bring him his lunch! I'll put pics up tomorrow :)
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