Thursday, November 17, 2011

Happy 1st bandversary to me :)

It's been an amazing day.

I'd like to start by saying thank you all for the wonderful comments, messages, Emails and words of support.

This year has certainly been an amazing one.  It's funny thinking back - this time last year, I was sipping on my first apple juice in what felt like years and was totally off my head trying to find my iPhone in my bathroom bag!  I've certainly come a long way from there.

I officially began my journey back in August last year but was banded on the 17th of November 2011.  I have lost over 50kg since then.  My actual weigh in on that date was never confirmed as the scales at the Hospital would not weigh me.  I still remember being so scared about the move I was about to make and I know, without a single doubt in my mind that I made the right decision.

Someone pointed out something on my blog comments last night about how unless you've actually been banded, you have no idea what this journey is like.  That is so true.  And unless you've had the fluid removed from your band after having it for some time, you still have no idea what it's like!  It's horrible.  Feeling this hunger.  This desperation and this constant feeling of needing to satisfy it.  Today has been wonderful as I haven't felt hungry at all.  I have stuck to my eating plan 100% but, I do need to watch that water intake especially considering as we are embarking on the warmer weather.

I had a really good day at work.  It was pretty busy but was rather enjoyable (I must be feeling unwell!).  I am getting a lot of satisfaction from being there at the moment and am looking forward to the future.  I think my new found confidence has a lot to do with it.  When I returned back to work in March last year, never did I think I'd be exploring some of the opportunities that are being presented to me at the moment.  I wouldn't have had the confidence to do any of the things that I have been doing recently.  I've really come out of my shell.

I've discovered a lot of new things over the past few days.  Strengths that I didn't realise I had.  Moments that I thought may have made me weak and crumble but instead, I have thrived and come out in front.  It's an awesome, empowering feeling.  One of my friends had this as their Facebook status yesterday - 'the degree of responsibility you take for your life, determines how much change you can create in it...' and I had to read it a few times before I totally understood it.

I like me as a person but there are parts of me I can't stand and parts of me I don't like when I'm confronted with different situations.

But, as I gain more confidence, the part of me that can stand up for what I believe in is in there, it just takes a bit of courage from my side to come out.  And to quote the good old Dr Phil, 'we teach people how to treat us' and I believe that goes for how we treat ourselves and what we expect from ourselves.  And I expect no more from me but the best that I know I can give.  And I'm happy to say that I have no other than the best people surrounding me and supporting me through this.

Thank you all for being there thus far.  Watch this space.  The next year is going to be one to remember.

xo

20 comments:

  1. Steph...
    I dunno what else to say, but I love ya!!
    You are so amazing, you really are! You are totally inspiring to everyone around you and they love every inch of you!
    I cant wait for your second bandversery :) and I bet it will be just as good if not better than this year!! <3 <3 <3

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  2. how is she amazing? she had the filling out of her band for a mere 6 weeks and she put on 10kg by eating everything and anything she could!!!!
    she hasnt learnt anything about eating healthily in the past year - take the band out and she will balloon out to the big fat blob she was 12 months ago! why congratulate someone who is so huge? hahaha

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  3. Jealousy is a curse. And to come on here and lash out at someone who has obviously achieved something more than what you ever could shoes how insecure you must be. It's quite sad. Did you not know that you are the type of person she speaks out about? Haters make her famous. Your insults make you look like a bitch.

    Steoh, you are the most amazing person I have ever met. Your generosity, loyalty and help during my personal struggles over the past year have shown how inspiring you really are. Thank you for being there. I am so proud of you. You are amazing. Nothing can hold you back now. Well done chicky. Love you x

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  4. Well done Steph :) bring on the next 365 days! xo

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  5. Such an inspiration to us all. Well done :)

    You're looking more amazing and beautiful every day. So excited for you. You'll have to teach me your banding secrets!

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  6. I remember when we first met at the fm and you couldn't even walk up the stairs. You run up them now! You are amazing. You bring a tear to my eye. you're getting your life back and throwing away bits that destroy you and bring you down.

    Hurry up back to the Gym for a hug!

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  7. Where do you find these people Steph?

    Think someone his a bit jelous.

    Happy bandversary. You're fantastic and I am proud.

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  9. Bludging not blushing

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  10. Don't let the bitterness, delusions, paranoia and sadness of others detract from your achievements, Steph. As a matter of fact, your advances and your exciting journey seem to have a corollary in the sad and bitter deterioration of someone else. You have been a true friend, you have always been a wonderful daughter, you are a very loved mother and wife, a respected colleague ... so many things to so many people. With so much going for you, put the jealousy and bitterness of others out of your mind and be proud, proud, proud.

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  11. Thank you all for your support.
    Her comment hasn’t gotten to me. I’ve had so much of this garbage from her that I’m now immune to it. This last outburst hasn’t made me feel anything more than a sense of sadness for her. I hope she gets the help she so desperately needs. I really do.

    People quite often create their own sadness by trying to put others down. They thrive on the feeling they get when they are bullying and belittling someone. I imagine that feeling would last for a while and would disappear quite quickly which is when they need to find something else (anything) to give them a short-term boost.

    Someone once told me this person always needs to have a drama going on and always needs to be angry at someone and has done this their whole life. That bought me much comfort knowing that when I first cut this person off a year or so ago. And it brings me comfort knowing that I’m not the only one who gets this treatment from her, although I feel sorry for anybody else who does. This is what she does to everyone eventually.

    So she continues to spread her venom, always hiding behind the word ‘anonymous’ and picking on me for something she has no experience in dealing with. This makes her feel better. That’s fine. But grow some balls. Show your name. We all know who you are. Seriously, if you want to say something that you feel should be displayed publicly on my blog, that has hundreds of hits a day, write your name. You won’t as you are a coward. And you are miserable. And you spend your life scanning your Computer to find ways to amuse yourself and upset others. It’s stalking.

    I’m sorry you’re unhappy but instead of focussing your energy on sitting in judgement of others, destroying people’s lives, wiping yourself out each night with whatever dangerous substances you can pour down your throat, get some help. If not for yourself, for the people like me who tried to help you but didn’t succeed. You could start by getting yourself back to work (what’s it been? A few weeks scattered here and there in the past five months or so?).

    You used to be a wonderful person. You may be surprised to know I wish you nothing but happiness. But you won’t find it by doing what you are doing.

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  12. She sounds awful. No loss I'm sure.

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  13. You have done so well. A credit to all x

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  14. Are you happy you had the Surgery? Do you think you could have done it on your own?

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  15. Hi :)

    I am really happy I got my band.

    A few months ago, I wondered if I could have done it on my own but, I know after the past few weeks, there is no way that I could. I am happy that I did it when I did. There is no point in wishing I had done it earlier as it simply didn't happen like that!

    With any surgery, there are complications and this is a life long commitment and it does take some time to get used to living with your band. It's just a tool to lose weight but, you are the one who does all the hard work.

    So proud of my results. And happy that others are able to do the same :)

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  16. I would name and Shame her Stephanie it might be the kick in the arse that bitch needs!!

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  17. No, I won't do that. I'm better than that.

    They have enough to deal with.

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  18. You are my inspiration. And if I could achieve only half of what you have so far I would be content.

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  19. Never feel resonsible for someone else's actions. Especially that persons. I have known her much longer then you have and baby, she ain't gonna change. Stay true to yourself and what you believe in.

    People go a bit strange when they are threatened by the success of others.

    You are probably getting it from all angles but barks are much worse than bites. You have done NOTHING wrong.

    Lap all of this up. You deserve it.

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  20. I'm fine :)

    I appreciate the support.

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