It’s been ages since I’ve done my blog.

It’s been ages since I’ve done my blog.


Something I’ve noticed about myself – when I am ‘not doing it’ I am not doing my blog either.

I haven’t weighed myself since the last time I noted my weight down (a LONG time ago) but I plan on doing so tomorrow morning to find out where I am at.
One thing that I have learnt about lap band surgery in the last few weeks is it’s not a miracle cure. It doesn’t make you pick the right foods . It doesn’t make you exercise. It doesn’t make you drink enough water. It doesn’t get rid of the temptations that you used to have. It just makes some of the things that used to be easy a little harder and it also makes the things that used to be hard a little easier.

For example – I used to be able to eat piece after piece of KFC. It used to be easy! As Chicken i not something that I can stomach at the moment, regardless of the fact that I drool when there is a commercial or when I drive past our local store and smell the Chicken, I know I can’t eat it unless it’s in a really soft form. It’s (my band) made it easier for me that I can’t have some of the really bad foods I used to like. I also find that I don’t enjoy them as much as I used to. Have you ever chewed a chip 30 times? Try that over and over again and you get kind of sick of the taste and texture after a while. It reminds me something that resembles duck food.

Things that used to be harder that are now easy is that I know when I am full. I can feel it. Something I never used to be able to identify with. And you are advised to not eat for more than half an hour (which I make sure I don’t do) as although you may not feel full after that time, you probably are.

Over the past month, I realised that I lost more before I had my band than what I have since I have had it. I have almost gotten to a point that it’s like now I am under 200 kilograms, I feel ‘acceptable’ to myself and I don’t have to try anymore. It’s the exact opposite. I have to remember my other goals. My goals of losing 50 kilograms this year. Walking for ahlf an hour a day. Drinking my water. Continuing to inspire others around me.

I have actually had one of my friends ‘check up’ on me on Facebook. She has Emailed me a few times asking if I have been walking and drinking. Making me be honest with myself and facing up to what I should be (but am not) doing. I also had an Email from another friend a few days ago saying I am sure you’ve lost stacks o weight since your last blog entry’. Nope. I don’t think I have. I haven’t lost weight but I have lost CMs.

My Mother in Law said the other day how you can see the weight going from my face and girl at work said how good I am looking the other day (even though I was wearing my fat pants).

I have to keep on going.

So, I’ve done a few ‘take 2s and take 3s’ and even though I have a band, I need to realise that these things will still happen although it’s up to me to be honest with myself and remember my goals and where I want to be this time next year.

Admittedly, I didn’t have internet access for a few weeks there (thanks Telstra)so that meat I ouldn’t blog but, I could have walked more. I could have drank more.

In saying that though, I have been making an effort at lunch time to walk around the shopping centre. I have been taking the long way to the train. I have been making an effort. It’s just a matter of fitting that half an hour block in my day. It sounds like I am being hard on myself but I need to be harder.
I also need to train for an event that is coming up – I am planning on walking in the ‘relay for life’ for my Nanna. This is on the 2nd of April (my Nanna’s birthday, funnily enough) and is ran by the Cancer Council. You get a group of 10 – 15 people together to make a group and you walk between the hours of 4pm and 10am the next day. I’ll post all of the details up once I have registered so you can check it out. Any donations are appreciated. If you’re interested in joining my team (and live near me – Melton, Victoria) – get in touch :) the more the merrier. It’s for a fantastic cause and most of us have been touched by Cancer sometime during our lives. IF you can’t walk, make a donation and help the Cancer Council continue their fantastic work. Still tying to think of a team name... the ‘slowdells’ has come to mind as has ‘payneful’. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated :) for more information, go to http://www.relayforlife.org.au/

I shall continue to blog and update you on my progress. Weigh day tomorrow :/ shall post results.

Goals for this week –
- To plan my meals better
- To incorporate at least half an hour of solid exercise into my day
- To drink my 2 litres of fluid
- To blog every day and even if it hurts, to be honest about my happenings
- And to keep inspiring those around me – that’s something that keeps me going

Until tomorrow xo