My weigh in...

My weigh in was very uneventful.  I jumped on the scales and I was exactly the same as what I was last week.  I think it's due to bloating.  I'm happy that I hadn't put any on thought.

I have been doing really well with my exercising.  I've gotten up in the morning and have gone for a walk like I committed to doing except for this morning but I'll go a bit later.  I haven't been going to the gym as the mornings have been so beautiful.  Instead I've walked around the reserve near my house.  It has a hill which is rather testing but it also has an oval and a path which is perfect for bike riding.

I've done really well with my water intake and my eating.  This week has been perfect so far!  We're only into day 3 but I'm really impressed with my efforts.  I am hoping they'll reflect on the scales on Monday.

I have relay for life coming up soon.  I need to make sure I'm ready for that so lots of walking is on the agenda.  I am so unfit still but am determined to build up my level of fitness so that I can do as much as possible during it.  This will be my forth relay and I am really looking forward to it.

I've also decided that I'm going to go to Aqua Aerobics every Monday.  It's something that I really enjoy.  All of the Kids will be at School in a few weeks which will give me more flexibility to focus on my fitness goals and activities.

I hope you're having a good week :)

My reflection at the top of the Hill yesterday morning

Weigh in tomorrow...

I'm a bit nervous about tomorrow!  I am weighing in.  I expect to have lost something but not sure how much it will be.

This week, I am committing myself to spending at least an hour a day at the gym.  I know that this will make me feel better inside and out.  The last few weeks have been a bit stressful so being able to get rid of this excess negative energy is something I'll benefit from.  I also ended up buying myself a new heart rate monitor last week as I have lost my other one (and I have looked EVERYWHERE!).

Looking forward to this week and seeing how I go.

My menu is all written up.  I have a very healthy list of meals that I'll be making.  All of them are from Jamie Oliver's new cookbook.  I can't wait to try them and enjoy some quick cooking.  I hate spending too much time in the Kitchen when I could be doing other things.  

I hope you have a good week :)

Action

Last night I decided to weigh myself.  I did not like what I saw.  Although I had lost some weight over the past few months, I have managed to put it back on again.  This is due to the lack of exercise and poor eating habits.  I am 204kg.  I went to be determined to make a difference today and tomorrow (today being Sunday, last night being Saturday).

I got up early and got dressed to go to the gym.  When I got to the gym, my swipe card wouldn't work.  That pissed me off!  And my Gym is right next door to McDonalds so you know what my first thought was, don't you - something along the lines of 'it wasn't meant to be'.  Well, it is meant to be.

I drove home and ended up walking around the park near my house.  I did sit ups (band allowed ones) and I did push ups.  I did some walking but not very fast due to the fact I didn't have my Asthma pump on me.  I observed the fact that even putting an extra 10kg on totally stuffs your body up but I didn't beat myself up about it.

I thought I'd blog before I had a shower.  I have decided to go on shakes for a few weeks.  I really need to get at least 15kg off before I feel as though I can exercise properly.  When I say shakes, I mean OptiFast, So Slim, OptiSlim and Tony Ferguson.  I need to mix them up a bit otherwise I get bored and tend to cheat. I will have a normal meal at night (a healthy one) but I'm going to be very strict for the first week  being at this weight means I am not able to do a lot of the things that I used to be able to do and I don't like that.

Like I said in my last blog, my story has been such a Rollercoaster.  And I don't make any apologies for it.  I will reach my goal.  This year I am going to be going as hard as what I was in 2010.  And I will get where I want to get to wherever that may be.

And yes, I still need to do my before photos.  They'll be up today sometime.

I've also started reading Dr Phil's book 'The Ultimate Weight Solution' and during my next appointment with Natasha, I am going to discuss with her why I am where I am with my weight and how I got here in the first place.  I know the answer is eating and not exercising but there's a lot of psychological components to where you end up with your weight and body image.  I'd like to discover mine.

I hope you have a great Sunday :) remember to do something good for you today.

2013 is my year so move out of the way, I'm coming through!

Happy New Year :) I hope that everyone had a fantastic night.  I spent the night with my beautiful family and my friends.  I had a fantastic time but the best bit is, I feel awesome as I didn't drink much :)

This morning, I read a quote from a person's blog on one of my friend's Facebook status updates and it read, "I have said this before but it bears repeating, my weight is the least interesting thing about me".  Her blog can be found here http://thisisnotadiet-itsmylife.com/2012/12/30/changes-you-cannot-see/ I haven't read her blog but I can relate to what she is saying.  And I can also expand on it from my perspective.  Weight takes over everything.  And it ends up becoming the only thing about you that people talk about or worry about.  The only thing they comment on (good or bad) and the only thing they track.  It's frustrating.  And from my point of view, I blog on here about my weight.  And even though I have had lap band, when I read it back, it's the classic 'up and down' weight loss story and although it would have been awesome to flick from the start to the end and read a fairy tale, I'm happy to have gone through every part of what I've been through over the past 2 years.  

So I plan on 2013 being one with a fairy tale ending when it comes to my weight loss journey.  I'm already on the way training for Relay for Life in February and I am sure I'll have a lot more things to add in my personal challenge Calendar as the year goes on.

I'll take some 'January 2013' photos today and will also weigh myself so I can once again compare how well I'm doing over the months.

Stay tuned :)