Sunday, January 7, 2018

Keepin' it real

I've always been honest about my weight loss journey and like everything, with the highs come the lows and today I was feeling low.  Why am I sharing this here?  Because I'm only human and I can't expect to always feel like a Superhero.  To be honest, sometimes I wish I could wake up at my ideal weight and not have to go through all of this.  I find inspiration from posts from some of the amazing people I follow on Instagram, especially their before and afters but it's important for me to remember that they didn't look like their after without putting in the hard yards.  I'm 76 days into this journey.  I've lost 13.8kg in that time and I lost 22cm in the last month and i have lost 59.1kg since my journey began!  I've done an amazing job.  I focus on how far I've come rather than how far I've got to go and I'm not feeling shitty because I've got so far to go - I'm feeling shitty simply because that's okay!

Until tonight, I hadn't exercised until Wednesday which for me is a big deal.  I try and get to the gym at least 5 times a week and when I try and justify it by saying 'this week I haven't had the chance', in the back of my mind I hear myself saying 'excuses don't burn calories'.

I planned on doing ParkRun on Saturday (yesterday) but it was too hot.  I am going to do it this Saturday instead.  I was a bit grumpy about it and didn't feel like doing anything yesterday except for keeping cool as it was 42 degrees.

I ended up going out for a walk with the dogs and the kids tonight.  It was nice to get out and get some fresh air.  I didn't walk as far as I wanted to (anyone with dogs who like to sniff everything would get why!) but at least I got out of the house and moved!  

My eating hasn't been bad but it hasn't been good.  Let's put it this way - I wouldn't have put weight on from what I've eaten over the past few days.  I've still stayed under my calories but I haven't had nearly as much fresh food as what I normally have and my water intake has been really bad!

So this week, my goal is to exercise at least 5 times for an hour each time (this is doable as this is what I normally do!) and I'll ensure my food is on point along with my water intake.  I will put in everything I have got during my PT session with Ivan on Tuesday.  I shall suck it up, put on my big girl panties and continue my journey and work my butt off to achieve my goals.  I shall allow myself to feel annoyed and whingy if that's what I need to do so long as I don't let it get in the way of what I want to achieve!  

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