I've had an amazing week :) I sit here feeling content, excited and looking forward to the coming months (and a bit icky and hung over and sorry for myself!).
It's no secret that I haven't been totally on track. I've had a few ups and downs in the past few months and I admit it - I haven't weighed myself for a few weeks now. I really don't want to know! I don't think I've put anything on but if I have, it hasn't been too much. I've been doing a wonderful job this week though in lead up to my fill - I need to make sure that it's not too much of a shock to the system when I can't eat things like chicken in a few weeks time!
I also am still trying to work out the battle of the Band Vs Alcohol - can anyone give me the answer to this to save me feeling worse than what I intended? Last night, I had a some drinks (not several but more than a few) and I was rather tiddly. Then I went to slightly drunk. Then I think I balanced on tiddly for a while. I was talking on the phone for several hours and at at around 1.30, I went to sleep feeling a bit more 'with it' but this afternoon, I have felt icky. And although I hardly drank enough to be drunk, some of the drunk traits certainly have shone through! One of them being my new found interest in nudie beaches (don't ask - you had to be there!).
Today I saw Natasha for the first time. She is a psychologist whose main interest is in dealing with people who have had lap band surgery. I've been writing a lot about finding myself and how I don't know myself at the moment. I hope that during my sessions with Natasha, I am able to work with her to guide me through the process of working out why I got to my heaviest in the first place and move forward to enable to me to build a healthy relationship with not just those around me but more importantly, myself. I spent an hour and a half with her today. I will see her every week for a few months and see how it pans out.
I don't mind me. I think I'm an okay person :) I am caring, kind, thoughtful, loving, giving, helpful, genuine, upfront - I am sure that these traits shine through to those who know me and also to those who don't. But it's time that I ensured these qualities available to myself, not just others around me. I have to keep reminding myself that I deserve this. Not just remind myself of that fact but also believe it too.
It's almost like my life is on a chalk board - I have things written here and there and I have been erasing parts or putting in them in a different area to deal with later (yes - over analyzing at it's best). I feel good about how it's looking at the moment and have managed to realize that if someone makes you ore miserable than happy, it doesn't matter how much you love them, you need to let them go or at least create that distance.
I have been feeling a lot more confident over the past few months. I've been finding several ways to express myself and put myself out there so that I step out of that comfort zone. Sure, it's scary but the rewards have been well worth the effort :) even things like applying for jobs (internally) have been things that I wouldn't have done 18 months ago. Cross your fingers for me - I am waiting to hear back about one that I REALLY want.
Life's good :)
Saturday, April 14, 2012
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Until we meet again xo
9 years ago, I commenced working for the Child Support Agency. There were 16 of us in our training group. I was lucky hat one of he girls who was in the training group with me was also someone I met at the initial interview so I sat next to her. I scanned the room to see who else was in the training group and one of those people was Janelle. She was so beautiful.
We did some ice breakers and I discovered that she lived a few suburbs away from me, as did one other girl and for the next 8 weeks, we all caught the train home together. Janelle was busy organising her Wedding to her Fiance, Brett. She'd just moved to a beautiful new house and she was so smart, funny and intelligent.
We worked in the same team together and we had a lot of fun. I remember measuring our butts against our cupboards to see how big they were, unjamming the printer when she was printing up her wedding invite envelopes, morning Coffee's at Calvin's Coffee Shop and when she undertook the task of making homemade Sushi for what seemed to be he whole site.
I remember her Wedding, her Olympic themed dress up party, when she told me she was pregnant with her Daughter Keirra and also when she moved away to Queensland. I remember when she would Email me about all of the adventures she was having and I'd watch Keirra grow up on Facebook. I was delighted when she told me she was pregnant again (actually, I had a dream about her being pregnant and I rang her and she told me she was - me and my freaky pregnancy dreams) and I was so excited when she told me that she'd given birth to baby Ethan.
I remember one day she sent me an SMS saying she wanted to talk to me about something. I thought it must be important and hoped that Ethan was okay as it was shortly after he was born. She said she'd call me later that night as she had an appointment to attend. I remember the call well. She told me that Ethan was fine but informed me that she had been told she had Cancer. This was 3 years ago, probably to the day that I got that call.
I couldn't believe that the healthiest girl that I knew had been diagnosed with such a terrible disease. I was shocked. Mortified. Stunned. Angry. This girl who was so fit, inside and out couldn't have such a thing. Even when I try to digest it now, it's difficult.
Over the past 3 years, I have watched Janelle take on Cancer. She moved back to Melbourne to be closer to her friends and family. She has done everything she can from modern medicine to alternative medicine to beat it. I doubt there is anything out there that she didn't try. I have been amazed at her courage, her strength, her attitude and how she refused to give up. Her Husband, Brett has been so supportive and so strong with her. Beating the Cancer became a full time job and just when I spoke to him yesterday to organise a time to come over to have Coffee this afternoon so I could see Nelly. I warned him that the Kids would be on a sugar high as I was going to get them some Easter Eggs on the way.
I had the day off work today as I had a really bad headache and slight hay fever. When I woke up, I had a voice message from one of my friends who also knows Janelle asking her to phone me as soon as I could. I gave myself a minute to wake up before calling her and she told me the news. Janelle had passed away earlier today.
Even as I write this, I can't believe it. I have had a cry. I have eaten ice cream. I feel so flat.
Janelle is one of these people who didn't see people for what they looked like or what she'd heard about them on the grape vine. She looked into you, not at you. And I normally feel intimidated by someone who is as beautiful as her but she never made me feel any less than as beautiful as what she was. I've never met someone like that before. She was so glamorous but never vain. Even over the past few days, she's looked stunning.
I have watched her over the past few months change physically as the cancer has taken hold but I have ignored all of that. I have always just looked at her beautiful blue eyes as they haven't changed.
She was taken too soon but lived her life to the fullest. She has a wonderful Husband, beautiful Children, a lovely family and loyal friends.
I am blessed to have had her in my life. And I like to know that the last memory she would have had of me was that I was coming over for a Coffee and to have some laughs and a big cuddle.
I hate Cancer. I hate it how it takes people away. I don't understand it's selection criteria or what you can do to avoid it. I hate it. I think it's shit. I will continue to raise money for cancer research. I will continue to help find a cure. I'll do whatever I can to make sure that I know I've done my bit so people don't have to go through this.
I love you, Nelly xo
We did some ice breakers and I discovered that she lived a few suburbs away from me, as did one other girl and for the next 8 weeks, we all caught the train home together. Janelle was busy organising her Wedding to her Fiance, Brett. She'd just moved to a beautiful new house and she was so smart, funny and intelligent.
We worked in the same team together and we had a lot of fun. I remember measuring our butts against our cupboards to see how big they were, unjamming the printer when she was printing up her wedding invite envelopes, morning Coffee's at Calvin's Coffee Shop and when she undertook the task of making homemade Sushi for what seemed to be he whole site.
I remember her Wedding, her Olympic themed dress up party, when she told me she was pregnant with her Daughter Keirra and also when she moved away to Queensland. I remember when she would Email me about all of the adventures she was having and I'd watch Keirra grow up on Facebook. I was delighted when she told me she was pregnant again (actually, I had a dream about her being pregnant and I rang her and she told me she was - me and my freaky pregnancy dreams) and I was so excited when she told me that she'd given birth to baby Ethan.
I remember one day she sent me an SMS saying she wanted to talk to me about something. I thought it must be important and hoped that Ethan was okay as it was shortly after he was born. She said she'd call me later that night as she had an appointment to attend. I remember the call well. She told me that Ethan was fine but informed me that she had been told she had Cancer. This was 3 years ago, probably to the day that I got that call.
I couldn't believe that the healthiest girl that I knew had been diagnosed with such a terrible disease. I was shocked. Mortified. Stunned. Angry. This girl who was so fit, inside and out couldn't have such a thing. Even when I try to digest it now, it's difficult.
Over the past 3 years, I have watched Janelle take on Cancer. She moved back to Melbourne to be closer to her friends and family. She has done everything she can from modern medicine to alternative medicine to beat it. I doubt there is anything out there that she didn't try. I have been amazed at her courage, her strength, her attitude and how she refused to give up. Her Husband, Brett has been so supportive and so strong with her. Beating the Cancer became a full time job and just when I spoke to him yesterday to organise a time to come over to have Coffee this afternoon so I could see Nelly. I warned him that the Kids would be on a sugar high as I was going to get them some Easter Eggs on the way.
I had the day off work today as I had a really bad headache and slight hay fever. When I woke up, I had a voice message from one of my friends who also knows Janelle asking her to phone me as soon as I could. I gave myself a minute to wake up before calling her and she told me the news. Janelle had passed away earlier today.
Even as I write this, I can't believe it. I have had a cry. I have eaten ice cream. I feel so flat.
Janelle is one of these people who didn't see people for what they looked like or what she'd heard about them on the grape vine. She looked into you, not at you. And I normally feel intimidated by someone who is as beautiful as her but she never made me feel any less than as beautiful as what she was. I've never met someone like that before. She was so glamorous but never vain. Even over the past few days, she's looked stunning.
I have watched her over the past few months change physically as the cancer has taken hold but I have ignored all of that. I have always just looked at her beautiful blue eyes as they haven't changed.
She was taken too soon but lived her life to the fullest. She has a wonderful Husband, beautiful Children, a lovely family and loyal friends.
I am blessed to have had her in my life. And I like to know that the last memory she would have had of me was that I was coming over for a Coffee and to have some laughs and a big cuddle.
I hate Cancer. I hate it how it takes people away. I don't understand it's selection criteria or what you can do to avoid it. I hate it. I think it's shit. I will continue to raise money for cancer research. I will continue to help find a cure. I'll do whatever I can to make sure that I know I've done my bit so people don't have to go through this.
I love you, Nelly xo
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Finding myself again
It's late (1.30am on the 25th of March) and about half an hour ago, I got home from Karaoke. I wanted to write this now rather than in the morning...
I was trying to work out when the last time I went to Karaoke was and I nailed it down ot when my friend Amelia was pregant with her Son, Samuel who starts School next year. 5 or 6 Karoke was one of the thigns on the top of my list if you asked me what I enjoyed doing but slowly, I ended up curling up and not going. There were a few reasons - depression being the main one when you can't even remember what you enjoyed doing and wouldn't even have the motivation, energy or interest to go if you could remember. Lack of time - being a Mum of 4 isn't a walk in the 'I have lots of time park'. It's tough work and you hardly ever find enough time for all of them let alone yourself. But as the years have gone by, so have my interests.
Tonight I decided it was time to go out. I haven't been out since December when Trishy and I got our hair done together. The time before that was when it was my friend Lucy's birthday party and I came home on the train and got home before 9 due to my family commitments.
I made a decision to go to Karaoke. I was a bit nervous. I sent a message to my friend, Terral and asked her if she'd like to come along (she's just up the road from the venue) and she said yes. I had a shower, got dressed and felt like I was a 14 year old going out late for the first time! I was so excited!
I went to the Venue where I met Terral. After we spoke for some time, I finally got up and sung my frist song. It was 'Mr Jones' by the Counting Crows - one that I used to sing all the time. One that is as comfortable as your old trackies or a daggy jumper that you wear. But I was shaking like a leaf and kept forgetting the words. I was so nervous. And although I have heard the song over and over again, singing things like 'man I wish I was beautiful' and things like that made me feel rather self concious.
After I got off the stage, I was still shaking but was happy to go up again. I sung another song that I used to sing which is 'better man' by Pearl Jam. And I was fine this time. I got most of the notes and felt amazing after I got off the stage. I started to write a list of the songs that I like singing. I looked through my iPhone to find the things that I enjoy singing in the car. And by the time I'd finished, I had about 30 songs written down. I'll keep them for next time.
Tonight was not just about getting up and singing some songs and watching others have a good time, it was about rediscovering who I am. I have absorbed myself in some destructive things over the past few years such as eating, gambling, not finishing things I've started, friendships that I'd never normally develop as I was not myself, procrastinating, placing blame on others for my short comings - lots of things but I'm not here to beat myself up about it, I suppose more to lay it on the table and look at it for what it was. And now look at it for what it is.
I have a fantastic life ahead of me. A new journey. So many doors to open. Doors that I used to open over and over again without realising that one day I'd struggle to get through but now (not because of size, by the way!) but because I was too scared to open them.
It's a strange feeling coming out of my shell. And for those who know me personally, I'm not a very shy girl but I have certainly got a lot of walls to knock down. And I'll do it slowly. Just as slowly as they went up.
I have so much to give back to myself and so many things that I want to do with my life. I am so happy that I am finally able to have the courage to have the life I deserve. And I'm hapy that it's happened early enough in life for me to truly enjoy it.
I hope al of the above makes sense. To me it does. And I hope it does to you too. I'm not sure if any of how I am feeling can ever be portrayed in words but, if you could feel how excited and motivated I am right now and compre it to the person I was a year ago - more so 2 years ago, you wouldn't know me. How could you as I am only just getting to know myself.
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I was trying to work out when the last time I went to Karaoke was and I nailed it down ot when my friend Amelia was pregant with her Son, Samuel who starts School next year. 5 or 6 Karoke was one of the thigns on the top of my list if you asked me what I enjoyed doing but slowly, I ended up curling up and not going. There were a few reasons - depression being the main one when you can't even remember what you enjoyed doing and wouldn't even have the motivation, energy or interest to go if you could remember. Lack of time - being a Mum of 4 isn't a walk in the 'I have lots of time park'. It's tough work and you hardly ever find enough time for all of them let alone yourself. But as the years have gone by, so have my interests.
Tonight I decided it was time to go out. I haven't been out since December when Trishy and I got our hair done together. The time before that was when it was my friend Lucy's birthday party and I came home on the train and got home before 9 due to my family commitments.
I made a decision to go to Karaoke. I was a bit nervous. I sent a message to my friend, Terral and asked her if she'd like to come along (she's just up the road from the venue) and she said yes. I had a shower, got dressed and felt like I was a 14 year old going out late for the first time! I was so excited!
I went to the Venue where I met Terral. After we spoke for some time, I finally got up and sung my frist song. It was 'Mr Jones' by the Counting Crows - one that I used to sing all the time. One that is as comfortable as your old trackies or a daggy jumper that you wear. But I was shaking like a leaf and kept forgetting the words. I was so nervous. And although I have heard the song over and over again, singing things like 'man I wish I was beautiful' and things like that made me feel rather self concious.
After I got off the stage, I was still shaking but was happy to go up again. I sung another song that I used to sing which is 'better man' by Pearl Jam. And I was fine this time. I got most of the notes and felt amazing after I got off the stage. I started to write a list of the songs that I like singing. I looked through my iPhone to find the things that I enjoy singing in the car. And by the time I'd finished, I had about 30 songs written down. I'll keep them for next time.
Tonight was not just about getting up and singing some songs and watching others have a good time, it was about rediscovering who I am. I have absorbed myself in some destructive things over the past few years such as eating, gambling, not finishing things I've started, friendships that I'd never normally develop as I was not myself, procrastinating, placing blame on others for my short comings - lots of things but I'm not here to beat myself up about it, I suppose more to lay it on the table and look at it for what it was. And now look at it for what it is.
I have a fantastic life ahead of me. A new journey. So many doors to open. Doors that I used to open over and over again without realising that one day I'd struggle to get through but now (not because of size, by the way!) but because I was too scared to open them.
It's a strange feeling coming out of my shell. And for those who know me personally, I'm not a very shy girl but I have certainly got a lot of walls to knock down. And I'll do it slowly. Just as slowly as they went up.
I have so much to give back to myself and so many things that I want to do with my life. I am so happy that I am finally able to have the courage to have the life I deserve. And I'm hapy that it's happened early enough in life for me to truly enjoy it.
I hope al of the above makes sense. To me it does. And I hope it does to you too. I'm not sure if any of how I am feeling can ever be portrayed in words but, if you could feel how excited and motivated I am right now and compre it to the person I was a year ago - more so 2 years ago, you wouldn't know me. How could you as I am only just getting to know myself.
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Thursday, March 15, 2012
Back in the game :)
I saw Dr Winnett today. He was so pleased with my progress. My cuts have healed so well. He was very pleased. He gave me the green light to start exercising again - anything other than weights and core work. And he said I am able to go swimming so that is exactly what I did.
I swam 400 meters and ended up stopping as my belly button started to hurt a bit. I need to make sure I go slowly with this as I don't want to end up injured. I am going to go back to the Gym again tomorrow. I didn't do any walking or anything today as I couldn't find any of my runners ANYWHERE. And given the fact I have 5 pairs, I am a bit worried! I shall have a look again tonight so I can get on the treadmill and give it my best shot!
I also forgot to announce that I am the proud 'Grand Mother' of Kittens :) my Cat Dora gave birth to 3 Kittens on the weekend. She is so clever and I am so proud of her. She has been wonderful and has let me help with almost everything. I am the only one in the house she doesn't hiss at :) she had 2 girls and 1 boy. I look forward to finding them good homes in the next 10 weeks and I'm happy that is looking like it's sorted out. It's going to be a busy few months but I am looking forward to it.
Dr Winnett is happy for me to go back to work on Monday so long as I am not sore. He said the blood clot on my inner elbow should settle down soon. We also spoke about tummy tucks :) I am going to have one when I am down to 100kg. I hope that I can get down to that by this time next year. I have big goals in sight. I am sure I can reach them.
I swam 400 meters and ended up stopping as my belly button started to hurt a bit. I need to make sure I go slowly with this as I don't want to end up injured. I am going to go back to the Gym again tomorrow. I didn't do any walking or anything today as I couldn't find any of my runners ANYWHERE. And given the fact I have 5 pairs, I am a bit worried! I shall have a look again tonight so I can get on the treadmill and give it my best shot!
I also forgot to announce that I am the proud 'Grand Mother' of Kittens :) my Cat Dora gave birth to 3 Kittens on the weekend. She is so clever and I am so proud of her. She has been wonderful and has let me help with almost everything. I am the only one in the house she doesn't hiss at :) she had 2 girls and 1 boy. I look forward to finding them good homes in the next 10 weeks and I'm happy that is looking like it's sorted out. It's going to be a busy few months but I am looking forward to it.
Dr Winnett is happy for me to go back to work on Monday so long as I am not sore. He said the blood clot on my inner elbow should settle down soon. We also spoke about tummy tucks :) I am going to have one when I am down to 100kg. I hope that I can get down to that by this time next year. I have big goals in sight. I am sure I can reach them.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
11 days post Surgery... 11.4kg down :)
I've been asked by a few people now how I am... didn't realise it had been that long since I blogged!
I'm off any kind of pain killers now to do with my surgery directly. The cuts are healing up well and they're all uncovered and have been for about a week now. The only one that I do have my eye on is the incision near my belly button. I had much more trouble with it last time than what I have this time which must come down the fact that I have lost so much weight. The worst thing I have to deal with has been the lump/clot on the inside of my elbow which is still there.
Since surgery, I have lost 11.4kg. I haven't been doing any exercise but that will change tomorrow as I feel up to going for a walk. I am actually thiniking about going back to the gym tomorrow but I think a walk around in the fresh air would do me good.
The hardest thing this time around with my surgery has been the eating. I think I mentioned that in my last blog. It's been difficult to stay diciplined and only eat (or drink) liquids but I look forward to Thursday when I am able to have pureed foods! I'm looking forward to it.
Here is a list of the sorts of foods I've been having - I've had to think out of the square at times
- V8 Juice (liquid or frozen)
- Ribeena
- Jelly (diet)
- SPC fruit sorbet
- Sustagen gold (Optifast and I don't gel anymore!)
- 'Musashi' Slim shake products (there's only 683kj or 163cal) in each shake
- Soups (home made are the best but I have had a few cup of soups here and there)
- Runny dips (these have kept me going especially when I have needed a strong taste)
- Chocolate (this melts!)
- Water (not as much as I should have)
- Herbal tea
- Milo
- Frozen yogurt
- Snow cones with diet cordial
I still can't recommend the Knife, fork and band book as the best book out there for bandits from Optifast stage right through to when you get back onto normal food.
I have had to think of things that I can chew as you get sick of not eating things and stuff does become very boring. I've also found that I have a sore tummy due to the fact that I am not eating anything solid. I am on medication to make things a little more 'comfortable' (if that makes sense!).
I am enjoying this second chance. Although I did everything right with my first band, I am finding this very beneficial. It's forced me back into a routine and has helped me get rid of that weight that has been sitting there since I had my fill removed late last year when the problems with my band started to emerge.
I haven't been hungry at all. I have actualy had to remember to eat which has sometimes been a bit of a challenge.
Looking forward to seeing Dr Winnett on Thursday and am looking forward to returning to work next Monday. It's been a long few weeks - especially the ones when I was in pain. Happy that is behind me.
Over the next few days, I'll be updating my blog's tabs as I think some of the links are out of date. If you think of anything you'd like to see or would find helpful, let me know. Also, if you are a follower of my blog and you have your own weight loss blog that you'd like me to add to my list of blogs, feel free to post it as a comment and I'll put it up :)
Hope everyone is well :)
I'm off any kind of pain killers now to do with my surgery directly. The cuts are healing up well and they're all uncovered and have been for about a week now. The only one that I do have my eye on is the incision near my belly button. I had much more trouble with it last time than what I have this time which must come down the fact that I have lost so much weight. The worst thing I have to deal with has been the lump/clot on the inside of my elbow which is still there.
Since surgery, I have lost 11.4kg. I haven't been doing any exercise but that will change tomorrow as I feel up to going for a walk. I am actually thiniking about going back to the gym tomorrow but I think a walk around in the fresh air would do me good.
The hardest thing this time around with my surgery has been the eating. I think I mentioned that in my last blog. It's been difficult to stay diciplined and only eat (or drink) liquids but I look forward to Thursday when I am able to have pureed foods! I'm looking forward to it.
Here is a list of the sorts of foods I've been having - I've had to think out of the square at times
- V8 Juice (liquid or frozen)
- Ribeena
- Jelly (diet)
- SPC fruit sorbet
- Sustagen gold (Optifast and I don't gel anymore!)
- 'Musashi' Slim shake products (there's only 683kj or 163cal) in each shake
- Soups (home made are the best but I have had a few cup of soups here and there)
- Runny dips (these have kept me going especially when I have needed a strong taste)
- Chocolate (this melts!)
- Water (not as much as I should have)
- Herbal tea
- Milo
- Frozen yogurt
- Snow cones with diet cordial
I still can't recommend the Knife, fork and band book as the best book out there for bandits from Optifast stage right through to when you get back onto normal food.
I have had to think of things that I can chew as you get sick of not eating things and stuff does become very boring. I've also found that I have a sore tummy due to the fact that I am not eating anything solid. I am on medication to make things a little more 'comfortable' (if that makes sense!).
I am enjoying this second chance. Although I did everything right with my first band, I am finding this very beneficial. It's forced me back into a routine and has helped me get rid of that weight that has been sitting there since I had my fill removed late last year when the problems with my band started to emerge.
I haven't been hungry at all. I have actualy had to remember to eat which has sometimes been a bit of a challenge.
Looking forward to seeing Dr Winnett on Thursday and am looking forward to returning to work next Monday. It's been a long few weeks - especially the ones when I was in pain. Happy that is behind me.
Over the next few days, I'll be updating my blog's tabs as I think some of the links are out of date. If you think of anything you'd like to see or would find helpful, let me know. Also, if you are a follower of my blog and you have your own weight loss blog that you'd like me to add to my list of blogs, feel free to post it as a comment and I'll put it up :)
Hope everyone is well :)
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Still sore but I'm getting there...
I am really sore. I have really bad shoulder tip pain and I didn't have this last time that I had surgery. It is awful. I have had it for days now. It doesn't come and go - it's always there in one way or another but the pain does increase and decrease. I don't even have to be doing anything for it to do that.
I phoned Dr Winnett's rooms this morning and she said to me to try some Peppermint Tea. I have had 2 cups of it and the first cup made me hiccup. Hiccupping hurts SO MUCH. I was in tears. The second cup made it worse. I have also had some degas which was also suggested and that has done nothing.
I went to see my Doctor this afternoon and he prescribed me some more pain killers and some more anti biotics.
My wounds have healed up really well except for the fact that I end up with red welts all around the outside of them due to the dressings that have been used there. I have been prescribed some cream as they are rather nasty. For some reason, no sticky stuff likes me!
I am so happy the Surgey is over though. Had I have not been experiencing these things, I'd probably consider going back to work tomorrow but I don't want to sit there and not be able to get comfortable. At least at home I have the luxuary of picking the bed or the couch or a stool to sit on and I can have a shower if need be which seems to help more than tea or degas for the pain at the moment.
I started reading 'eating in the light of the moon' last night. I got through the first few pages before I fell asleep from being exhausted (I was up until 2am this morning because of the pain). The start of it is very well written. I look forward to reading some more of it this evening.
I tried going for a small walk this afternoon but didn't have much luck! I was sore after it - mainly due to the shoulder tip pain but other than that, I am doing well for not even a week after Surgery. I have been writing my weight down each morning and am dropping almost a kilo a day! It has been lovely. I can't wait to see the numbers when I'm up and exercising. I am really looking forward to saying goodbye to this last lot of weight. There isn't a lot that is going to stop me.
I am also undertaking quite a huge physical task in July. I shall write more about it in the next few weeks once all the details have been finalised. I am very excited. It's bigger than anything I have ever done and even bigger than what I'd dare to dream. It was all my Sister's idea and I am lucky she asked me to come along for the ride. Watch this space :)
I phoned Dr Winnett's rooms this morning and she said to me to try some Peppermint Tea. I have had 2 cups of it and the first cup made me hiccup. Hiccupping hurts SO MUCH. I was in tears. The second cup made it worse. I have also had some degas which was also suggested and that has done nothing.
I went to see my Doctor this afternoon and he prescribed me some more pain killers and some more anti biotics.
My wounds have healed up really well except for the fact that I end up with red welts all around the outside of them due to the dressings that have been used there. I have been prescribed some cream as they are rather nasty. For some reason, no sticky stuff likes me!
I am so happy the Surgey is over though. Had I have not been experiencing these things, I'd probably consider going back to work tomorrow but I don't want to sit there and not be able to get comfortable. At least at home I have the luxuary of picking the bed or the couch or a stool to sit on and I can have a shower if need be which seems to help more than tea or degas for the pain at the moment.
I started reading 'eating in the light of the moon' last night. I got through the first few pages before I fell asleep from being exhausted (I was up until 2am this morning because of the pain). The start of it is very well written. I look forward to reading some more of it this evening.
I tried going for a small walk this afternoon but didn't have much luck! I was sore after it - mainly due to the shoulder tip pain but other than that, I am doing well for not even a week after Surgery. I have been writing my weight down each morning and am dropping almost a kilo a day! It has been lovely. I can't wait to see the numbers when I'm up and exercising. I am really looking forward to saying goodbye to this last lot of weight. There isn't a lot that is going to stop me.
I am also undertaking quite a huge physical task in July. I shall write more about it in the next few weeks once all the details have been finalised. I am very excited. It's bigger than anything I have ever done and even bigger than what I'd dare to dream. It was all my Sister's idea and I am lucky she asked me to come along for the ride. Watch this space :)
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Day 2 post Surgery
Today I'm day 2 post Surgery and I'm feeling pretty good.
I have kept up with my pain killers and have made sure that I don't get too sore. I didn't have the best sleep last night - I kept tossing and turning as I was trying to stay on my back - a position I don't like sleeping in. I ended up working out a way that I could roll over onto my side and be comfortable with the assistance of pillows.
My cuts aren't that sore. It's more so my shoulder. I have had heat packs on and off. I've had 3 showers today to get rid of the pain. The Twins have resisted the temptation of jumping on me too which is good as it would hurt!
I haven't slept all day - I have spent most of the day in bed under the doona reading. It's been perfect Weather to do so :) I have become a Kindle addict. One of my friends, Chantal tried to convince me to buy a Kindle ages ago when I was whinging about the fact that I couldn't fit all of my books on the shelf. I have been scouring Amazon for some free titles and have found few. I am currently reading Picture Perfect by Jodi Picoult. I have read a lot of her books and haven't had the chance to sit down and actually read it at the pace in which most of her novels should be read (not being able to put it down!). I don't know how I managed to live my life before I got my iPad2! It has opened up a whole new world to me! And has helped me fulfill my book fetish. I can get as many books as I want and they're all free (although I do admit to buying 1 or 2). I wouldn't have considered reading some of the ones that I have downloaded but I have really enjoyed them.
I made some soups today and have put them in the freezer for dinner. I will make another few tomorrow as well. I made curried pumpkin and red lentils as well as potato and leek. They are so nice. I have just sealed them up in freezer bags and put them in the freezer. I have around 9 in there which will keep me going for a while but seem as I am on the fluids for 2 weeks, I'd like to make sure I have more in there. Tomorrow, I'll be having a drinking yogurt for Breakfast, a strawberry smoothie for lunch and some minestrone soup for dinner. I am using the Knife, Fork and Band book to get my recipes out of and know that I won't get bored until the end.
My tummy has been growling a lot. I forgot to ask Dr Winnett if he put in any fluid when he put the new band in. I think that he did but I can't be 100% sure. I'd love to see if I can go back to work on Wednesday. I'll have to see how I go.
I think one of the hardest things for me during this has been not eating food. Before I was banded the last time, I was used to not eating food as I had been doing the Optifast for so long but now, I have gone from being able to eat normal things one day to not being able to eat normal foods the next. I am not hungry but I have to remind myself that no, I can't try that piece of meat from the casserole or eat the rice to see if it's cooked. Little things like that. I am sure I'll get used to it over the next few days.
Once again, thank you all for the messages over the past few days. It's appreciated. I'll put some photos up of my surgery when I get them. I forgot to get them from the Hospital so I'll ask them to send them to me. I'll also put some photos of my battle scars when I change the dressings tomorrow but this will be marked with a warning as I know my Mother couldn't think of anything worse!
I'm going to go and watch a movie now. I could get used to this 'no doing anything' but know that it won't last for long!
I have kept up with my pain killers and have made sure that I don't get too sore. I didn't have the best sleep last night - I kept tossing and turning as I was trying to stay on my back - a position I don't like sleeping in. I ended up working out a way that I could roll over onto my side and be comfortable with the assistance of pillows.
My cuts aren't that sore. It's more so my shoulder. I have had heat packs on and off. I've had 3 showers today to get rid of the pain. The Twins have resisted the temptation of jumping on me too which is good as it would hurt!
I haven't slept all day - I have spent most of the day in bed under the doona reading. It's been perfect Weather to do so :) I have become a Kindle addict. One of my friends, Chantal tried to convince me to buy a Kindle ages ago when I was whinging about the fact that I couldn't fit all of my books on the shelf. I have been scouring Amazon for some free titles and have found few. I am currently reading Picture Perfect by Jodi Picoult. I have read a lot of her books and haven't had the chance to sit down and actually read it at the pace in which most of her novels should be read (not being able to put it down!). I don't know how I managed to live my life before I got my iPad2! It has opened up a whole new world to me! And has helped me fulfill my book fetish. I can get as many books as I want and they're all free (although I do admit to buying 1 or 2). I wouldn't have considered reading some of the ones that I have downloaded but I have really enjoyed them.
I made some soups today and have put them in the freezer for dinner. I will make another few tomorrow as well. I made curried pumpkin and red lentils as well as potato and leek. They are so nice. I have just sealed them up in freezer bags and put them in the freezer. I have around 9 in there which will keep me going for a while but seem as I am on the fluids for 2 weeks, I'd like to make sure I have more in there. Tomorrow, I'll be having a drinking yogurt for Breakfast, a strawberry smoothie for lunch and some minestrone soup for dinner. I am using the Knife, Fork and Band book to get my recipes out of and know that I won't get bored until the end.
My tummy has been growling a lot. I forgot to ask Dr Winnett if he put in any fluid when he put the new band in. I think that he did but I can't be 100% sure. I'd love to see if I can go back to work on Wednesday. I'll have to see how I go.
I think one of the hardest things for me during this has been not eating food. Before I was banded the last time, I was used to not eating food as I had been doing the Optifast for so long but now, I have gone from being able to eat normal things one day to not being able to eat normal foods the next. I am not hungry but I have to remind myself that no, I can't try that piece of meat from the casserole or eat the rice to see if it's cooked. Little things like that. I am sure I'll get used to it over the next few days.
Once again, thank you all for the messages over the past few days. It's appreciated. I'll put some photos up of my surgery when I get them. I forgot to get them from the Hospital so I'll ask them to send them to me. I'll also put some photos of my battle scars when I change the dressings tomorrow but this will be marked with a warning as I know my Mother couldn't think of anything worse!
I'm going to go and watch a movie now. I could get used to this 'no doing anything' but know that it won't last for long!
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